Tonight before Kairos I walked to a cafe with Jennifer Harding, the college pastor's wife. We talked about how I was going to Wyoming and she asked if I had prayed about it. And me being me, trying to run my life, I haven't. So I told her and she got a kinda shocked look on her face and said, you never move if God isn't in it.
It made me think, a lot, and pray, and think some more. God put me here for a reason; He had a plan for my life. Does His plan involve me moving to Wyoming? Or is this one of those things that I decided I'm little miss independent and I can run my own life? This should be one of those times when I run to God; I'm lost in this world without Him, but yet I run to the only man in my life that truly loves me, my daddy. But am I running there because I have nowhere else to turn, or am I running there because God want me to be there?
I'm so confused right now. I have no idea what I'm doing in my life. I just know I need to fill it with God before I try to fill it with anything else.
While Matthew was speaking he said that you need to get the first M accomplished before you can move on to the second, let alone the third.
1. Master
2. Mission
3. Mate
I'm still stuck on Master, I don't feel like I understand Him well enough to move onto my mission in life, let alone mate.
This past week God has just shown me though relationships that I can't do this on my own. I tried to be miss independent again with a relationship and it failed me, big time.
So I hope in the future you will be seeing less of me and more of God!
